I’ll just start typing and see where this goes.
Okay – So I’ve started this blog because (hopefully) this year it going to be very exciting for me and I thought it would be cool to document it. If things don’t pan out then it will give me motivation to do exciting things anyway because what’s the point in having a blog if you have nothing to blog about? See?
I have quite a few travel plans in the works for this year. Ibiza at the end of March, Romania for 3 weeks in June, Orlando for 2 weeks in July and (hopefully) China for a bit it August to visit my friend who has just recently moved there. I’m also trying to line up a TEFL job for a year starting about September/October time so fingers crossed for that.
But for now? Just waiting. Trying to fill my days with worthwhile things rather than just come home from work and watch TV, or do housework. It’s difficult though – doing things, meeting people, being social. How do people manage it? Did I miss out on that day at school where everyone learned how to be fun and outgoing? I feel kind of lost in my thoughts of self pity, and I thought writing this would help clear it all out but it’s just making me cringe at myself. Why am I moaning so much? I live in the biggest city in Scotland, there are literally hundreds of things to do so close by! It just gets to a point where doing things solo is just not fun anymore. I shouldn’t just wait around for life to throw a cool experience at me.
It really just comes down to the utter confusion of me really wanting to move away and travel as much as I can, but also being terrified of doing just that! Travelling the world solo – cause it will have to be solo. There is no way to know what it will be like. How easy/difficult it will be to meet people and get to know them. How safe or dangerous it will be. What it will be like when I finally have to come home and fall back into my old life?
I can feel that 2016 is going to be a year of putting myself in some very uncomfortable situations to force myself to enjoy doing new things, meet new people and experience life as it was intended. Tough gig for and introvert.